Change = Growth
Four days ago marked my eighth month since I moved from Virginia to Texas, and I think now more than ever I am in a period of growth. I've been hysterical and hostile; irritable; weepy and sentimental. I think in our times of growth it is anything but pleasant and we don't even realize we are growing- but that is not what makes it so discomforting; it is the feeling of something inside of us holding it's breath, perpetually waiting, and being hesitant to what the next step will be.
I give myself a hard time when I am having one of those days where I am incredibly homesick. I feel as though I should be "used to it by now" but it is much more than that. I've learned that it usually takes an outside source like a quote or a song or someone telling you that you are indeed growing, and not losing your mind. I am growing more spiritually and larger than I ever have before- but it is that period and time of insecure steps we take where we find out that we are preparing for our next phase, and in all likelihood a new level of our personality becomes revealed.
So instead of beating myself up for feeling the way I do, I've been working on accepting it and doing something that makes me happy instead of just focusing for hours on how sad or homesick I feel in that moment. A few things that always help are calling my parents or friends and talking for awhile about anything and everything, watching The Office, and taking some time to unwind and be mindful and in the present.
I hope this post can help one of you who are going through something similar. Even though it's really hard at times, it only gets better as time goes on.